Yes forums are really the place to share deeply personal and profoundly moving things in order that people who don't even know you can judge, condemn, ridicule and sweep under the carpet of their choice. Do you at least see why people are unwilling to share on this level? These kinds of things are really private. The person having such an experience is gaining an understanding on more than just the intellectual level. He doesn't have to answer to anybody else's opinions of what is right or wrong about it.
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Gurmukho, please discuss. Would you change your convictions if you comeacross a miracle/experience or see a dream of devi/pir or whatever?
Isn't Gurmat bigger than miracles or some experiences?
Please allow me to pose the question a little differently.
Would you change your beliefs about reality if you had an experience which gave you a new insight into that reality?
Now allow me to qualify without revealing too much.
An experience is something with the power to open your heart and mind. It's not a dream or an imaginary image. Allow me to say this much also, something which is a deeply held belief, while sincere and true is only an understanding you have at the time. I
f the same person has a profound experience, naturally their beliefs will change, because they are no longer based on what he thinks but what he now knows.
A lot of people have had near death experiences. They claim to have seen Jesus, Moses, Mohammed, angels, God, etc, with incredible variety
all influenced by previously existing cultural beliefs. Who can say it's wrong or right because it doesn't conform to "our" structure of belief?
Maybe all these images are only representations of the mind for experiences which are actually deeper and quite beyond our ability to comprehend?
It's a bit unusual to have no real belief in something and then to have a direct experience of it. Some have claimed mischievous beings are luring you away from the true path. I have a little different take on the matter, having had such an experience myself.
I will give you a hint.
I never saw any lady on a tiger.
I didn't say I had darshan of a devi. I said I had darshan of Devi.
I was walking away from a sant who was in Devi bhava, and thousands of people were there in a huge crowd. As I was walking away from the sant, I lost my ordinary consciousness and everything went dark because suddenly, as I was sitting into the chair, there was this amazing Presence right beside and within me, in fact there really wasn't any concept of spatial distance. This incredibly brilliant Light was shining so brightly that the whole room went dark and essentially everything and everyone faded away. There was no other reality. I didn't see any form, just this brilliant golden white Light shining more powerfully than the sun. It radiated all the way to the top of the building and beyond. It was just Pure LIGHT. And being in the Presence of that Divine Light, and I knew instinctively it was Devi Ma, my Divine Mother, My Father my ALL, no one told me.
And I said, "Amma, Amma" with tears streaming down my face and with my whole heart and soul exposed to the Light and I knew the Light loved me. Because the Light was pure love of a mother and I felt very tiny in it's Presence. And the Presence was so exhilarating it was all I wanted to live for. It was what I had come into this world to find. It was the reason for being born. And I wanted to die in that moment, because nothing in my life could compare to the radiance, to the glory of this Great Good Light. And tears were streaming down because I felt so unworthy to be in that Presence of Divine Love. I was aware of my separation and the limits of my mentality and my impurities of mind and heart. And I wanted to be in that Presence always, to be das of, to bow down to, to sing the praises of Her unimaginable glory. My life is the footstool of the Divine Beloved who wears whatever face we can perceive Him with. I did not want my life anymore, so great was the Divine Glory. I wanted to just lose myself forever in the brilliant Light Presence of Divine Mother. Because I had nothing. I am nothing. And coming back to ordinary consciousness was like a grief of separation to my soul.
You know, I don't know how to describe what the glory was like. But it was a definite brilliant Light Presence. It was a Divine Being, the eternal God and also radiating from within my own soul. And just being in that Presence, you want to touch the ground in humility. You instinctively want to bow yourself down because you are keenly aware of your shortcomings. In fact, you want to kiss the very ground where the Light is touching. But the glory was like something not of this world. When I had these experiences I knew things that were going to happen. Like I knew I would have a car accident, and some other things that would happen. I knew things, not because I'm so great, but from being in the Presence of something which was so Great it was beyond our ordinary understanding of time and space. Like I was just made aware of stuff. But I can't remember all the things I knew when I was in that consciousness.
I can tell you this. Sikhi is the deepest truth. But it is not the only expression of deepest truth in the world. And it is not in contradiction to universal truth which human beings understand at different levels but is still leading to the same ultimate truth.
I can tell you this. We are supposed to deeply and profoundly love and care for each other, and that defense of a Khalsa is protective because it comes from cherishing the Light which resides in the living beings. And it isn't a cowardly love. It is a Pure Force which has the power to be a terror to evil while not itself becoming evil.
I can tell you this. Reconciliation is in the Light which hides at the heart of all things. Not separate temporary identities, but actual merging into each other, so that the suffering of the lowliest becomes my own. When I can truly cherish without division, like a Divine Mother and like a Divine Father I can help to heal the causes of suffering. Just as the Light loves us, we are supposed to be the Light of Love in this world of darkness and ignorance. That is our purpose. That is why we are here. We are supposed to give ourselves away as a sacrifice of love to bring comfort and protection and peace to all who need.
Now I don't say I'm all those things. I'm not holy, I'm a sinful, selfish person filled with ignorance and ego. But that was the glory I understood being in the Presence of Divine Light. I understood self-sacrifice and surrender to Divine Love is our purification. When we take this message to heart, we will actually become that which we know is holy.
"Would you change your convictions"
What we think is right, and what we know is right are sometimes not the same. If you have a profound life-changing experience, you aren't so much worried about other people's opinions or what they think is right. It's not that you change your convictions at all, but you move out of the little box of what everybody says Truth is supposed to be limited to.
"Isn't Gurmat bigger than miracles or some experiences?"
Guru's teachings are One with the eternal Truth. But you must understand how limited we are in comprehending the fullness of that truth. Nobody can put Gurmat, into their hip pocket and become oppositional to the things we can't even understand. Because Gurmat is actually flowing though life itself and all our experiences, mundane and profound. Gurmat is eternal Truth, and the eternal Truth is always here with us. It is right beside us in our very own hearts and minds. It flows through our every breath, within, throughout, beyond and always. But Gurmat isn't limited to any interpretations of Singh Sabhias. Gurmat is in the ancient past and the distant future. Gurmat is also God's Divine Presence. And there isn't any miracle bigger than that.
Gurmat is the boat of mukti and it is forever singing in unheard spaces. It is enlivening every nerve and nadi. It is the eternal bani which is praising forever the greatness of God. And every little miracle along the way, however small or foolishly perceived, is another praise of His infinite Glory. There is no opposition between one kind of understanding of truth and another. Truth is always truth, within us and without us.
Now you may all make fun of my foolishness as you like.