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What can I do, when i feel bored, i get uncontrollable, and i start watching wrong videos, which causes me a lot of time wasted. then also marha karam ho jandene.

could you please give the audio file of this written kathas? Because for me reading from a screen it's getting little bit harder, and is possible to listen to kathas also when for example we are driving, ... Thanks.

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh I am thankfull to those gursikhs, who took my arm, and led me at guruji's feet. Apne Karam Ki Gat Me Kea Jano, Baba Re. Tuadda bahot bahot dhanvaad, i will keep you updated about how s going on, and asking you, how to fight anything which is coming in my path. Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh, I am replying late, there is a reason, i feel guilty about myself, but i will keep in mind your suggestions, and just reading your post change my mind, I am really thankfull. I hope, sarbat da pala, dass da vi vich hi. I hope one day with God s Grace, i will be rigged of this, and can restart wearing Bana and Dhumalla. After i saw my life ( i cannot call jeevan), i stopped wearing Bana, and Dhumalla, i will when Gurdev Patshah will make me his devotee. I am just crying, suffering, as Mahraj Said "Nimak Kaam Suad, Bahot Dinas ..." I don't remember correctly. I hope oneday my vibrations will be changes, my thinking will be changed, my life will change into jeevan, and "I" will die into my Lord soon. (ego) Thanks a lot. Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

This time it happeed that yesterday I had to go on "Pirate Bay" to download a file, and at the side there was 2 adult content adverts, which attracted me, and at the evening i have watched that adult content after more then 1 month, same story this morning, and then today i falled again. now please help me.....

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh Singhs, similar here ... I was a good boy, always happy, studying, life was going perfect, till the day my parents stopped to support me. I am 17, and I was 15 when I had to leave school and start looking for work, this tension on my mind has ate me for a lot, till I met a Singh, he teached me a lot, a lot, really a lot, he made me a little bit gurmukh, he brought me to take amrit. But it was late for one problem, before meeting him, i had to stop going gurdwara sahib because my age guys who i was meeting at gurdwara sahib was kaami, when i was 8 they was always eating my head with that. They made me kaami. (Okay kasoor ta ona da nehi, kassor mere karaman da but ...) Today i am failed, on my knees, may falling with me face on the floor in some time. When guruji gave me amrit, (pata nehi kinna taras kar ke, jini okad nehi si, tami guru ji ne amrit di bakshish kitti), due to family problem, my family didnt let me be in Rehat, and this caused me to fall in Kaam. I have watched a lot of bad videos also after amrit. I have enjoyed something which was ruining me, and today I see the result. I am posting here and not asking in a new thread because someone mentioned "Blue Balls" is what today I am having. This cycle started that something made me fall in kaam, i have falled, and then for a lot of time can't stay far, after (sometime 2-3 days, and sometime 2-3 weeks (doing it daily (sometime also twise))). After this time i start to stay far, and then from (2-5 days max record i think a little bit up then a week) i re fall inside this kaam. What make s me fall is that i get testicular pain (Blue Balls), brutall pain that i am no more able to walk, and (stairs charhna uttarna, ta me soch vi nehi sakda hunna, inna dard karan lagpenda sareer mera), and when i do it 2 times, the sperm made by my body leaves, and the narrha which connects from testicolar to penis gets free and i am re able to walk. Who i was .... just a manmukh, what guruji gave me .... AMRIT, .... and what I did? ... Thankhaya. Please help! Thanks for the attention, i will kiss the feet of whos will help me. :'-( Please ujjardhe bande di bah farhleo .... dob de pae bande di bah farhleo ..... please ????? Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh.