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Guru ji kirpa, not doing bad stuff on the internet. But yesterday night my mind just kept saying bad stuff about the Bhagats and then when I woke up it was insulting shaheeds, it put it my in a bad mood the whole day.

I think my uni does have a councilorr. I probably will a psychiatrist later on if it still continues, got a lot of work from uni at the moment.

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London Thanks for this, will hopefully check it out Before I touch a Gukta Sahib Ji, how many times should I be washing my hands ? Also after going to the toilet is washing my hands twice too much ? Nope, in my area they charge a lot of money for getting Paath done and don't really agree with charging so much. Hopefully Guru Ji blesses with the ability to do Sri Sehaj Paath when i'm older. My mum is going to Bangal Sahib soon and said she will do Ardaas for me.

Wahsers, used to be chekers, definitely doubters and sinners and maybe hoarders with my kesh.

I've always been underweight, but sometimes have trouble swallowing food but i am seeing a doctor for that.

Just talking to the Sangat on here has made me feel better, I don't really talk about these issues cause I don't have any practicing Sikh friends, but i feel more focused now.

I do focus much better when listening to kirtan i enjoy, I might have to try getting representations of Guru Ji to try and focus.

I used to recite Japji Sahib along with audio, but kept pausing it as i missed some parts out. Still ended up taking a long time, I do listen to some banis but I dont pay attention.

I also am severely underweight and don't eat properly. I'm thinking this is making me unfit to read bania, i don't think i need to see a doctor, as soon as i can do path properly i think it will get conquered.

I did watch some CBT videos, but when I get bad thoughts related to Guru Ji or stuff against Gurmat I usually feel down because its building up bad karma, especially when my head says something bad about sants.

But the worst thing is at times to read any shabad/bani is really hard for me. My mind just feels fried/blocked. At times I just want to do simran, but I feel guilty for not doing Nitnem

Will try the Jaaps first

Think it was a councillor/psychiatrist but that was like 6 years ago

21 nearly

At first it did, but I have to say OCD is the main reason that brought me to Guru Ji. After that Guru Ji done kirpa and sorted it came under some control.

I had anxiety before my OCD, and saw a doctor for some period of time. But when she suggested referring me, my parents said no.

Thank you will try this Jaap

No, but previously my condition was really bad was into superstitions and everything. Like I used to do everything a certain number of times otherwise i felt something bad will happen. And I used to wash my hands for more than 5 minutes. Someone suggest I had Pure-O, which is the exact some thoughts I get that people online have describe/written about.

Nope I feel the doctor won't understand my problem, as my OCD is mainly impacting my Sikhi mainly. I want to take Amrit, but currently I don't think is the best time with all my work load from uni and my kaam problem. I finish uni by June, so hopefully I should be preparing my self to take it. Thank you for the Jaap, but I can't read Gurmukhi is that Ang 818 of Guru Mahraj. Also thank you for replying back

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh I need guidance, recently I feel down. I'm having problems with balancing Sikhi and normal daily tasks. Currently I am in my last year at university and have a lot of work, I also have OCD/Pure-O which means I get messed up thoughts and sometimes they really do get to me. I have quite a few problems so will try and shorten them down. I find it hard to do any path, even the shortest bania will take me a long time to do and whenever I do complete the bani instead of feeling at peace I get headaches. I would say it takes me 40 minutes to do Japji Sahib and 10 minutes to do Kirtan Sohila. It really annoys me that I can't do it my bania quicker, I have been doing this for two years and don't think I can carry on this the rest of my life. I just keep stopping and repeating some tuks over and over again because I feel I have pronounced it wrong and feel like Guru Ji is going to tell me off. Because of my OCD I find it hard to make a decision, I will spend a lot of time considering whether what i'm going to do is the best choice for my Sikhi. I just end up thinking about it all the time and just feel down and exhausted after. I can't control my kaam, every week I just end up going on the internet and doing bad stuff. After I feel sick and I feel I don't deserve to be a Sikh. I get some many bad thoughts, but Guru Ji kirpa I've learnt to live with them, but it kills me inside and makes me worried whenever I get a bad thought about Guru Ji, a mahapurkh or a Shaheed. When I sit down in the sangat it is more hard, my mind just says so many bad stuff about people. Also because of my OCD my mind is messed up, for example sometimes when looking up and where I look happens to be a girl, i automatically think I've done something bad. The time i do bania, are all over the place. I don't wake up at amrit vela and my evening path I sometimes do at 10/11pm. When I go uni sometimes I would reach home round 6/7 but I'm to tired and hungry to straight away to do my Rehras Sahib Ji, so i end up doing it late, sleep late and wake up late. I listen Rehras sahib Ji when travelling from back to uni but I feel guilty, and end up doing it later at home. Because of my OCD, I wash my hands alot and my skin gets bad after a few days. I also live in family which drinks and has meat, so I feel like stuff is contaminated. Currently i am not Amritdari and to be honest I hardly do any simran. My morning routine is: When I go uni I start path at 8 When i don't go uni start path about 11/12 Japji Sahib Jaap Sahib (listen and follow along as much as I can) Tav prasad savaiye Chaupai Sahib (listen and recite along) Anand Sahib (listen but when doing worldly things if at home or on the train) Hukamnama (if i have uni i will read it in the night) Evening Routine: Rehras Sahib Ji Night: Kirtan Sohila Hukamnama Katha Simran (10 minutes if lucky) I feel all over the place at the moment, and not even studying much because I can't find the right balance. Please forgive me if i said anything wrong, offensive or wasted your time. Sat Sri Akaal