lostsikh

I hope i understand that the consequences of my actions are bad when ever i have a pervert attack. And look twice in the mirror and contact the crisis line that these are thoughts voices that are going on.

Thats a really good point which i have never thought about at all. I mean the sexual stuff is wrong i am now understanding it. But to me the death suicide beheading executions videos are not wrong at all as its the world that made me like this loving death. I mean death vids are the best i have watched once more than 20 in a row of both suicide and beheadings. I mean surly if this dirty filthy side didn't exist for me i would be happy. But death vids are way better plus i don't have to pay for any of the material.

I am a disgusting human being i have even looked at men walking down the street and finding myself attracted to them. I am a big filthy excuse of a human.

Thats really nice and good advice my fellow bro. I hope it comes true as i have deceived myself along with my identity. I feel really bad after i commit a sin that its like a loop circle.

You are 100 percent right i am all of these things as i need to look in the mirror before i ever do those pervert acts

I feel like everyone is against me on here . I mean i am gonna try to improve myself as i haven't looked at porn or any related material since a week now

I am a sinner i admit. I am a false sikh and i hide my dirty secrets from the world. But i need help with my problems.

You are right i am a c**t especially as i wear the dastar and i am using hookers,webcams,pornos, phonelines etc. And recently i have even started to wear nail polish and started to watch gay stuff now as well. You know how embarrassing it is when to buy Viagra from the chemist as i feel really sad when I have to go to the shit that i do I also want to take amrit as well but these voices urges kick in then its horrible.

Yes its wrong i know what i am doing its disgusting behaviour especially as i wear seeing them a full beard and turban. I live in the UK and its shameful that i have done the things i have been doing.

True you are right bro i do need to fix up. Especially the gundh i come up with is sick i admit. Its just the death vids that i don't want to give up as i feel i am in love with them. I keep my full kesh no shaving or cutting and wear a turban. But still sikhsangat should give me a chance as i like that site.

I don't know to be honest as i still love watching those death vids a lot. Plus i don't know what opression means. I try to stop the voices when it comes to the sexual stuff in my head as thats torture

True bro i am banned from sikhsangat from even registering. Those people running it are scum. Its all true the pyscharcist said i got ocd and am stuck in the past due to the ptsd. You are right i am misusing the voices as a excuse especially the behaviours i display

Yes i have seen psychiatrist about it and they have given me cariprazine and .paroxetine But still i get urges of sexual stuff and death vids

I heard about how that as well especially as i usually the reviews on a website

You are right i agree with you. I do need to think a lot about this but then i hear loud voices which are scary to be around. STDs are a scary thing but the voices are worse asking me to look at the stuff i do