love for the lord

all i know is that there is a time in meditation when u stop doing simran, because uve achieved some sort of high concentration, and u just listien, and u hear something within, and it brings u up. by this time or so, u get to see the radiant form of ur master? ur master starts to speak to u... and answer ur questions. this is only the beginning of the path tho, but i dont think ANYBODY has been able to do it lol. so much for achieving god in this lifetime.

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simran isnt a means to an end. u cant live a full spiritual life with only simran. u cant end birth death cycle with only simran. simran is suppose to only be the beginning of meditation. the way to actually live a legit truely devoted life is to be able to do simran to the point that you can hear the sound current or shabd very clearly, so u hear church bells or whatever. then ur body becomes numb up to ur eyes, and your attention becomes 100 percent at the eye center due to the sound. now, u arent doing simran anymroe, but being lifted by the sound, and supposedly u get brought to the higher regions of light and sound. ive heard a sound in silence, but of course not church bells or anything that is described as "enchanting." i wonder, how much simran do u have to do before u are able to actually hear the sound, or go to the higher regions? i do understand, simran isnt bliss, bliss is when u dont need ur mind to do simran anymore, because ur mind already has risen to its home and is experiencing infinite bliss, while ur soul has risen high above. I quite often worry that i will never be good enough at meditation to be able to hear the celetial music that is the actual real music. i think there are VERY few people who are good at meditation in this way.

so u think simran is a good way to meditate, or is there better more advanced ways, and other techniques that can further my spiritual progress i should look into?

i feel i want to get to the lord as soon as possible, and also, ive noticed that abstaining from these things causes me to be more devoted. there are lots of things that make the mind cloudy or scattered, so i try to avoid them. but i truely wonder, is simran all you need to reach the lord? it often seems like it wont do THAT much, like open ur third eye.

:cry: I have lost interest for the world, powered by love for the lord. i long to be able to go within to truely meet the lord. i am never satisfied or content because i dont indulge anymore, so i am always thinking of the lord, wishing my doubts and seperation could at last come to an end. When i am content, i feel infinite love for the lord, and nothing else. the moments i feel of bliss, i give to the lord. i am now abstaining from everything, so the only time i might feel bliss is when i listien to music, which i wish i could stop also in order to only live off the love of the lord through meditation. i am a beginner meditator, so instead of dying daily, i suffer daily. i do not compensate for the loss of sensual pleasures through going within, rather, i endure pain my mind inflicts upon me. i merely get better at concentration, but if there is any bliss, it of course isnt strong or lasting. im a senior in high school so things are really tuff. i really dont know how long i can keep this up, i just put faith in meditation. all i do is do a good simran mantra and noticing the blackness in front of me, attempting to do both at the same time unwaveringly. i wonder, how many of you just plain love the lord, and at times have no other urge but to meditate? i really feel like im suffocating, but i love the lord so much, i wont wait for the benefits of meditation before i quit all sins, but its hard. idk, i try to meditate every second i can, but how long should it take before it starts to actually bring bliss, bliss that can replace greed anger lust..... its usually said that once in deep meditation, all bad tendencies vanish instantly due to the higher level of attraction. how many of you can actually meditate this well? i put my entire life in the faith of meditation, for i feel like a dirty slave of the mind, and i cant do what my soul truely urges for. i will continue this divine uncontent as they call it, are any of you on this hard path to love? :cry: