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Couldn't do it. Schedule got busy.

Day 13 ( 21 jan 2016) - woke up 2 AM, nap 8-10 am - 5 banis check -celibacy : day 6

Day 12 ( 20 jan , 2016) - woke up 2:20 am, difficulty staying past 6 am, so slept from 6-11 am, fall asleep at night around 11ish PM, hence have to take longer naps the next morning, need to fix this. - celibacy : day 5 - 5 banis in eve

Day 11 ( 19 Jan, 2016) - woke up 2:20 am, nap from 7-9:30 am, - 5 banis check - celibacy: day 4

Day 10( Jan 18, 2016) -woke up 2:00 am, nap 7-11am - 5 banis check - celibacy: day 3

Thanks brother, I will try to include this Shabad in daily routine if possible.

Day 9 ( Jan 17, 2016) - woke up: 2:30 AM, nap from 7:30-11AM - 5 Banis done - celibacy: Day 2

Day 8 ( Jan 16) - woke up 7:40 am, was waking up during sleep & dreams, wishing Guru Ji Happy Birthday, was guilty & happy at same time, was remembering waheguru ji in between - 5 Banis check - malas:0

Day 7 ( Jan 15) - woke up 8:30 am, 7 banis check, did no malas - the day was going fine until night, when got reminded of someone & to relieve unpleasentness did masturbation - i feel like a failure thats why I didn't want to continue this blog, but I will do it till Day 14 since you mentioned.

I need to discipline myself more. Hopefully, overtime the will-power builds up . Just need to keep trying & trying. The longest I have gone in the past with celibacy is two times, once for 45 days, another for 50 days. And few times 20ish days. It can be done again, just need to rewire my circuits.

Here is something I came across, really liked the scientific approach on pretty much all the addictions. thought I would share.

Day 6 ( Jan 14) - woke up 8:02 am , 5 Banis check - masturbated again...:( no malas so far... - A lot of my problems seem to be interrelated. Depression, Career failure. Not Married. - It seems like a failure but I will not give up.

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Day 5 ( Jan 13, 2016) - woke up really late 8:30 am, I think this was the effect of semen loss in 2 consecutive days, this is how my body responds by being lazy & not getting up Amritvela. - did basic nitnem, still have to do malas. I am behind 21 malas + 12 malas for today. - I resolve to discipline my mind by doing 33 malas today. ( 11:00 AM). Lets see how this goes. ps, Thanks for mental support all. - so the resolve did not get completed, only did 12 malas in total - everything was going in fine till at the last moment, when I got excited thinking about someone, & to relieve myself on the unpleasant feelings I did hast-maithun again. I thought I would be improving but it is not working so far...

Day 4 ( Jan 12) - woke up 1:30 am , slept from 4:30 to 9 am. -5 banis done , 6 malas done, 6 pending - no bad dreams or thoughts last night or this morning Thanks Papiman, & Gurpreet , I will keep your tips in mind - hast-maithun again :(, was weak from yesterday, didn't try to fight much. still gotta do malas...3 pm now - total malas done: 8 - at night did 5 kirtan sohilas

Day 3 ( Jan 11) - today was a bad day, failure, lustful thoughts through out day, ended up watching bad stuff and masturbated after 7 days of celibacy. - Nitnem was done, only 2 malas of Moolmantar today - I dont know if I should still continue till day 14 or give this up. - having a headache now due to failure -ps. did 3 malas before sleeping, so in total 5 malas.

Yes brother, I read that at Rehras time. But it does not seem to help. I woke up today with intense feelings of lustful desires, it ruins the whole day and breaks the will power.

Day 3 - woke up 4:51 am, 5 Banis done - lustful thoughts increasing esp during dreams, vivid dreams, I feel as the energy increases Lust also increases. But so far good, no break in vow. Had a dream, where I was reading a book & saw bright blue colored chakra popping out from the page

Day 2 - woke up 4:35 am from bed, better than before, slept later for 2 hrs from 8 to 10am, will try to avoid that. - 5 Banis completed - Moolmantar completed

Day 1 - not able to do 2:40 am, but woke up 6 am, better than before - only watched a indian reality show for 30 mins, was too addicted to give up , will try to give up in coming days, otherwise good - Nitnem & 12 malas completed with Guru's Grace.

I am starting this blog to improve myself for 14 days. Here are my rules for dos & donts. Wish me luck. -1)Do not watch youtube, shows, hollywood movies, nudity, porn or songs -2)Wake up at 2:40 am 3) Do Nitnem, & 12 Malas Moolmantar Day 1 begins on New Moon day tomorrow ( Masya), & concludes Day 14 Full Moon. I will keep the sangat updated on my progress.