With Gurus grace , das was able to finish 1,25,000 repetition within 40 days but with many mistakes.
Hence, my experience will differ from those who will do it with more pure minds or at different spiritual stages. I did have some personal aspirations as a reason for this jaap. Only Guru Ji & time will tell.
regardless, Here was my experience:
- i stuck to mental japa because of time constraints. I think it will be impossible to do loud japa for 16 hours straight.
- most of the days were consistent 32 malas, however there were 4 days on which the number differed as following, 16, 6, etc
- 38-39 days were in one spot, i think i did end up changing the spot
- i did light jot for 38/40 days. lighting it everyday in itself was a challenge,,and so was making sure to keep water everyday
- the first week was full of enthusiasm, but the rest of the time it was ok
- first time i did it , it took around 5 hours, then slowly the mental speed got faster and i averaged between 3 to 3 hours 45 minutes / 32 malas depending on mental alertness. if i was sleepy it would take 4 hrs to finish
- as for focus & concentration....that was only the first 20 minutes...but the rest of the time mind was distracted with many thoughts, mostly thoughts of lust & vishe vikar
Things I learnt:
- it is very difficult to take on 40 day challenge or chalisas with fixed timing, fixed spot , fixed ghee jot, water everyday. I think these are successful for mahapurush of pure mind, who have control over their minds. it is better to do a khula japa with less restrictions.
- i cannot ever entertain the thought of doing a siddhi of a mantra...i would rather do a casual japa of moolmantra with loose timings.
Post-Japa
- i dont think I am sensitive enough to notice any changes yet...the mental state is same,..hmmm... i think a ton of japa is needed, in my case, to hammer my mind, also along with japa mind needs to be trained 24/7 to live consciously and make conscious choices.
I have had this desire to do this japa for a long time, almost a decade. I am glad Guru Ji got it done from me...rest is upto him to take care of me ...
