sumeet

Back to forum after 3 months......I dont do path like my parents....I am reading whole guru granth sahib(the english translation). I am a totally changed person now.The sound is now easily accesable anytime a want.All tensions seem to have vanished.Life is beautiful.All the rituals are starting to look like pakhands now.Like akhand path before marriages and everywhere else.Like people doing sukhmani sahib everyday and are very pround that they remember it by heart but they never do simran which is supposed to be done everytime.Its like they keep reading about how to swim but never actually try to swim.Recently i went to shri Anandpur sahib.They give saropas to everyone who put Rs 100 or more than that in golak.Now what the hell is that.Guru Nanak dev ji was strictly agaist the pakhands.So whats going on in our religion. I remember when i used to go to gurudwara as a child i only used to understand few things like "Guru maneo Granth" everything used to pass
above my head.Why cant guru granth sahib be read in simple punjabi translation so that everyone can understand the real deal.Some of you might be really angry by my post.
yes....I am a clean shaved 23 yr old man.
And i can keep hair....Just please tell me where is it written in Shri Guru Granth sahib to do it if you want to meet the Lord.Because the only one i will follow is my Guru and the only important work in my life is to meet the Lord everything else is secondary.

no i had started to meditate on chakras before i started doing simran now i just follow the sound on my eyebrow center.In my experience mind cannot be kept quiet without simran and just concentrating on chakras...for me now simran is everything...........everything else is false

Now i understand the true meaning of amrit vela....I will try to get up early tommorow.
i have noticed that my sleep pattern has drasticaly improved ...i dont sleep during day now as i used to do earlier..and i dont wake up at night even once it will be difficult for me to wake up at 3:00 am but deep inside i know i have to do it.I feel like tears are flowing down on cheeks while doing simran but when i check i cant find any wetness...it keeps on distracting....anyone else feel something like this.

the sound is coming from top of my head and it is difficult to do simran mentally now.i just keep listening to those sounds while meditating.But because of this my mind now keeps wandering when i am not listening to the shabad.should i start doing simran though mouth while listening to the shabad.I have many of doubts got cleared reading gurbani in the previous pages today.

How happy i am to find you people..........only you can understand. I have started hearing anhad shabad from past 8 days.Since then i am constantly doing research on it.I have not shared this with anyone.I live in Mohali,punjab.I have no one who can understand me because i am not a true sikh.I dont have turban.i got my hair cut at age of 12.I am 23 years old now.so far i have read it happens because of guru's kirpa.So i dont understand why he did kirpa on me.All this started few months back
when i just wanted to do meditation because of many reasons which i cannot share.But i dint know how to meditate...i just knew we have keep our mind empty.then i came across chakras and started to meditate on mooldhar,ajna and sahasara and then stopped it because it didnt meant anything.but from past one month i have been doing simran.I leared about it that we have to do it mentally...I dont know when and how it became a passion of my life and i was doing waheguru waheguru mentally all the time and i felt very good.It came to extent that while listening songs i was thinking of waheguru in that tune.And then around 8 days back a noise started to come in my ears and it started distracting my simran and i had to open my eyes slowly it went away....but after that it came back ..this time not very loud....i decided to do simran again....it became very loud again...Then i found that this is Anhad naad.I was stunned. I could hear it if i concentrated.
I am amazed i dont read gurbani.Around one moth back i didnt beleived in god.and now i beleive in nothing else than him.This feels like i am mad i dont want to do anything else simran now.It was a sigh of releif to find you.But sometimes i start questioning my self that do i deserve it beacuse my whole i have been making mockery of god and thought that religious people are wasting there lifes.

no i had started to meditate on chakras before i started doing simran now i just follow the sound on my eyebrow center.In my experience mind cannot be kept quiet without simran and just concentrating on chakras...for me now simran is everything...........everything else is false