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Wow what a great video. Thanks much.
Actually I was feeling the same as u. Anger overtook me everytime I used to come out of the Babaji room and started shouting on the kids for creating mess or doing whatever wrong they are always upto... And that caused a fight between us all.  one day he shouted "path karke Ehsaan Karti ho kya "
Then I Self analysed..   I was bringing bad name to my Babaji as well.. wat I realised is that when we do path it requires a lot of  our energy"Aakhan Aukha Sacha Naam".. we tend to loose patience easily and being mentally tired we react vigorously.  Then I made intentional efforts to improve.. be polite n sweet as my Guru Sahib is 'mithbolra'.. I should thus follow.. n m trying to.. though it's pretty hard. 
Probably that's our initial stage n soon we ll get rass- amrit n its power

It might be that now that you are not constantly numbing yourself with the substances, and are doing simran (one effect of which is to let the subconscious and suppressed conscious rise), you're finally having to face these emotions. 
My own personal experience has been that it takes a bit of time and practice to really let that stream of consciousness (it's like a babble of all things) disperse. That's one of the biggest challenges of simran - letting the thoughts go, and it does take practice, and you may well have ups and downs when you start trying this. 
As for the issues underlying the anger, you might want to gently confront these in your mind - at your own pace. Avoid triggers that set these outbursts out if possible. Go somewhere quiet until the feelings subside if possible.
Try a different speed (slightly slower), and remember to come back to focusing on the sound of the jap when the mind wonders. It really helps to break the thinking process up a bit. If you start with just a few odd seconds away from the ramblings of the mind in your japing session then you're already actually making progress in disrupting the thoughts (whether you realise this or not). 
Try japping to audios as well. I like this from Dasam Bani for instance. I think it is gentle yet powerful. 
 

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh
Happy New Year to all members.Wish you all the best for this year.This was the first New Years day where I wasn't drunk or having a hangover.Joining this forum did help a lot in changing me and my resolution this year is to be a better Sikh and person than I was last year.

Thanks much
If you would really worry about what OTHERS are saying .. u would never be happy. People called Nanak Sahib bhutna , betaala... Kabeer ji was also cursed by his own mother ... 
Dekh k andith karo. Forget what others say.. do wat makes the Guru happy.
Moreover Amrit will bring good vices on its own. ATB

Waheguru Ji
Also, highly recommend this book on Sikhi Spirituality called 'Forgetting the Way of Love' you can download it from link below Waheguru Waheguru
 

Bhen ji I have removed the link and the picture from your post in my quote of it.
 
I do want to take amrit and luckly with Waheguru's kirpa my nitnem banis is quite good. I just have a few a few loose strings left to finish before taking amrit. Like my mum said take it when you get career wise ready etc.
 
The other annoying thing is how people like from family friend etc tease people who are religious with pharses like granthi bhai etc. I get annoyed so I give rude answers back when someone says this to me. 

Bhen ji it does seem like a complicated situation from what you have mentioned. 
 
I myself have not taken amrit yet but with Waheguru's kirpa I know the panj banis and many other banis. 
 
So perhaps you can try to increase your paaths banis and show how desperately you would like to take amrit then maybe your husband will be happy for you to take it.

Yes veer ji you are right. 
 
Here is a short audio clip where Sant Kartar Singh Ji Bhindrawale saw topi wearing sikh and their answer basically their view
 

the whole purpose of a joora (top Knot) is to cover and protect our dasam duaar which is on top of our head. By wearing a patka what are you protecting? hmmmmmm

Pls all for God's sake stop attacking each other. When Guru Gobind Singh Sahib was asked which 'panth is better he never said mine .. he answered " Tumhe tumhara khoob humein hamaara khoob" i.e U love Urs. I love mine.
 
We are not supposed to disrespect any religion just because most of us have less knowledge about Christianity ...we are not able to compare and answer doesn't mean we will find flaws and attack each other.
We don't force anyone to 'convert' but @LetsSee if u have come to this forum probably u have some unanswered questions
One of the common points in both our religion is that we Sikhs just like Muslims and Christians  believe in one God, but unlike Christians and Muslims we don't believe in the existence of Satan or 😈 . Our Babaji talks about MAYA instead who's also the creation of one God. There's NO ONE EXCEPT HIM. HE CREATED ALL . Even Maya with whose three vices  we are all influenced and perform negative things..
Who can compare. the two religions better than one the who has been a Christian for 44 yrs and then stepped into Sikhism and is loving it.
Pls watch
 
 
 

This cat will chase mice or anything else. I've sort of adopted it (more like it has adopted me), but it is a proper outside cat and doesn't like it inside unless it is proper freezing outside, when it might stay indoors for the night. 

Veer ji you are right its best to start with one mala then build up to 2 then 4 and so on. Cos its best to train yourself up before jumping to large number of malas in the starting stages as it will create headaches migraines etc and triedness etc.

You could always start with less malas and increasing them as you begin to pick up speed in reciting after some time. 

Though I m too lowly to comment on anything in this regard as I m not blessed with either of the Amrit yet still all I would like to mention here something that I heard in a Katha... Pls consider
This is like 'water boring' or a handpump where they dig deep till they reach the water level below the earth.. then put water from above and as both the waters meet a spring of water bursts out of the earth, which doesn't stop after that. Amrit inside the body and Amrit ceremony can thus be related. Where both are equally important as if u don't dig deep enough you won't be able to solve the purpose and vice versa. 
2. If Amrit ceremony would have not been important why would Guru Gobind Singh Sahib have  taken it himself?? Who could be more pious??
 

You may purchase male or female slaves from among the foreigners who live among you. You may also purchase the children of such resident foreigners, including those who have been born in your land. You may treat them as your property, passing them on to your children as a permanent inheritance. You may treat your slaves like this, but the people of Israel, your relatives, must never be treated this way. Leviticus 25:44-46 NLT
When a man sells his daughter as a slave, she will not be freed at the end of six years as the men are. If she does not please the man who bought her, he may allow her to be bought back again." Exodus 21: 7-8
Slavery is allowed in the bible as well as sex slavery.
Hmmmmm
I will not comment anymore

Check this out, it might contain something useful: http://www.global.ucsb.edu/punjab/sites/secure.lsit.ucsb.edu.gisp.d7_sp/files/sitefiles/journals/volume20/3-JS Grewal 20.pdf

Thanks veer ji for sharing very happy to hear Sant Jis bachan

Just something interesting I stumbled upon. 

I came from a rock too, where is my magic? 

I was watching this documentary and it seems that you were right about rocks giving rise to life.
 
 

Here is a interesting point of how Sants predicated the current pakistan border situation mentioned by gyani thakur singh at 42:30 onwards
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=206588583611284&id=165458433514685&anchor_composer=false

Thanks for sharing veer ji. I do agree that science and modern day technology has dritfed man far far away from Gurbani and faith in God.

Thats interesting veer ji thanks for mentioning as i haven't listened to that katha track.

one time when I was sitting in da living room I saw dis shadow looked like a human's. It was tall and skinny. It didn't really resemble a shadow from anyone in my family. It passed through between the table and couch. twas weird.
ps does sleep paralysis got anything thing to do with ghosts, etc. It used to happen with me before das (tva (referring to god) Prasad) started reading gurbani, etc. It never never ever happened ever since das (tva (referring to god) Prasad) started reading gurbani, etc.

Srimaan Sant Baba Attar Singh jee Mastuanaywale's bachan:
 

 

 
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